bubu

i hope you know how much i need you now. there is no reason why i am here typing every letter if not because of you. i need you, i miss you, i long for you every single minute of everyday. i love you, even if you don't say it back to me. i still hope and pray that it would be me. that i am not alone feeling this way. i hope one day everything will go the way that favors us both, no nothing just pure happy. what ever happens, i am still here, do all sort of stuff for you only you. i will carry you all the way to the table to eat, pray before eating, thanking the Lord for the food and bubu. i am the happiest driver everytime you ride with me, hugging me all along the trip. you make me the luckiest when we talk about lives on our space where we are alone. not every one knows how strong you are. and i am here smiling as you tell me your stories. you know i like surprises but i keep them so tightly that it will shock the world we live in. i like keeping you, but i love to tell the world that i have you, we are happy and this is how we are. sweet. happy. love. thank you for being there also, from giving me meds when i am sick. being mad at me when i did not took an opportunity to rest. mad at me when i skip taking meds. mad at me when i worked so hard and i forgot to eat. for bringing me food, with fruits pa, when you think i haven't had enough food over work that day. for kissing me when i get mad with other people's arrogance. for asking a hug and a kiss everytime i missed it. for being there when strangers made prejudices to me which i am not used to. for making happy, even if there are things that needs sacrifices. i am writing this today, because it's been almost one whole day that we are together but never heard from you. i would never want to make you mad at me bubu. please. again, i miss you. everyday.