all eyes on me. eyes that are not so convincing anymore

recently and at present everything's not doing well. now, i realize that it is never easy to be a local celebrity. with every gossip, every accusations, every humiliation, it was never easy, and i am not used to it yet. but unlike real artists, they get money for their interviews and every contoversial questions thrown into them. but, in our case, there is money money involve.

sabi nga ng mga artista na natsitsismis kapag nagsalita sila dahil pakiramdam nila personal na ang mga binabato sa kanya. okay lang daw na intrigahin sila ng mga gossippers, wag lang idamay ang family. dahil pag family na ang apektado, lalaban na sila. same goes on me, i never reacted on every gossip about me and tsokolate circulating around my former school, and on every one who knows me. but my family is affected by these. kaya sinasabi ko na walang katotohanan lahat. okay, nagiging literal na ako.

and about what others say that i am destroying my "mabaait" image. i was surprised when i heard about that. i am not doing good to make the people around me say that i am a good man. i do good because it is the right thing to do. mahirap talaga kung lumaki kang mabait. walang ibang titingnan ang mga tao sa iyo kundi ang mga nagawa mong mali. a simple mistake is like unforgivable for them. unlike, the one who is know hard headed and annoying, kung gumawa ng katiting na kagandahan, parang isang celebration pa.

don't throw in some words that you can't stand it's credibilty. dahil babalik sa iyo ang sinabi mo.

ano pa man ang mangyayari, i still have my friends and family. the ones that knows me better. i hope what i said is true. as long as i know i am not stepping on anybody, that i think that this is right and i can handle it, i will stand for it.

i will stand for tsokolate. and i know i am still on track.